live for a reason

if someone ask me "why did you marriage in early age?", i really don't have anything to say

Yang gue tau cuma, in this past 4.5 years I've been accompanying with the best and the only man who can teach me math, and i used to believe that's maybe the answer of that kind of question, but  i really don't have any idea.

Sekarang umur gue 21 dan gue nikah di penghujung 20. Ketika Masya (my hubby) nanya "Kamu mau gak nikah sama aku?", gue cuma bilang, "Kalau aku dikasih jajan 50 ribu sehari, aku mau". Yes!! my price is only worth 50 thousand rupiah. And he said "Ok! I'll give you 50 thousand rupiah a day", and it's deal. :-)

Ketika beberapa temen gue nanya kenapa gue nikah, gue ceritain cerita sebenernya dan mereka ketawa, gue pun gak ngerti apa yang mereka ketawain, that's not even funny for me. Gue mulai sering berpikir, kenapa gue nikah? kenapa gue nikah sama orang yang gap umurnya jauh banget sama gue? kenapa gue nikah sekarang? kenapa ketika ditanya gue cuma jawab 50rb? kenapa gak 5juta?

Gue mulai sering bengong dan berpikir, apa lebihnya Masya sehingga gue gak mikir panjang dan langsung bilang iya. He is not the most charming person on earth, or the most kindhearted men  i ever met. But why i fall for him?

Lately, gue berpikir tentang abang gue. Gimana dia bisa menikahi seorang perempuan yang beru dia kenal beberapa bulan, dan mungkin baru beberapa kali ngobrol langsung dan gak kenal siapa kakak dan adiknya, gak tau dimana dia lahir dan kapan tanggal lahirnya. Yes!! my brother do have a reason why he married that girl, which is my mom, my dad, me, my sister, my elder brother and every other family doesn't even know her. Tapi yang penting dia punya alasan untuk menikah. But me?

Setelah 10 bulan pernikahan berlalu, beberapa hal gue pelajari. Beberapa orang mungkin butuh alasan untuk melakukan atau menerima sesuatu, tapi gue gak pernah punya alasan untuk Masya. Gue bilang iya, karena iya, gue mau nikah sama dia. I don't have any reason to fall for him. To be honest, deep in my heart i do think that he is the most annoying man on earth but what can i do? i'm fall for him. Gue gak punya alesan ketika marah atau ketika akur, kadang ya gue cuma kepengen marah aja tapi gak tau kenapa, jadi gue cari cari alesan untuk marah in order to look normal, kadang ketika gue baik ya karna gue baik aja.

I don't have any reason to fall in love, I don't have any reason why i married Masya, I don't have any reason why I marriage in early age. All i know, when you falling in love you just falling in love.

And after all this time, I'm falling in love with Masya..